What a week!!

This last week has been rough on us. Richard was "fired" from the hospital. It seems unfair due to our situation but the hospital doesn't care they just pushed him out, and I found out today that the hospital has been doing that to a few people. Richard is pretty upset because he loved the ER, he had a lot of friends and learned a lot from all the amazing doctors. Richard also had strep throat this last week and has been suffering through school. On the up side he is all most done with school! I got sick but not strep and I having an allergic reaction to some beauty product and it has been miserable. The ending of the semester is always difficult because the teachers try to shove a lot of information in the last three weeks, in my chemistry class we are covering two-three chapters a week when we were doing one chapter a week. We had to take it slow to understand what was going on and now it feels like we all are lost. The Teacher is going to three more test in three weeks five chapters, its crazy. But at least it is almost over. YAY!!! The truck is still dead and we think it is the battery but we haven't done anything with it yet.

There is some good news through, I am applying for a supervisor position in the Lab. That's where I started at hospital and I have missed it although I have loved the opportunities I have gotten working other departments in the hospital. I have a interview on Monday and I am hoping for the best. It will be a pay increase but it goes with a stress increase but it is day shift and I can pretty much make my own hours as long as I am there each day and see each shift. I am really excited and I hope I get it.

Oh and just a note, Richard and I (yep Richard too) have decided to work on going through the temple some time this next summer, there will be more to come.

Much love to all

Memories...

As a comment on my blog, leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot...anything you remember! Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty cool (and funny) to see the responses. If you leave a memeory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you!

Destined to fail!

It seems that over the last year going to school has become more of a challenge, and I think there is some evil force (aka Satan) trying to stop me from going to school and succeeding. I quite frankly have had enough! It started with simple things and now has moved on to physically stopping me from attending class. To make things worse its upper Organic Chemistry, you don't want to miss that its complex.

At first I would burn my breakfast (which is not really uncommon for me but this was different), or there was an accident on the road making me late, but now it has turned into my alarm clock not going off and the car not starting. It has gotten real annoying because it feels like something goes wrong everyday. For example this week, I have worked my 3 12 hour graveyards shifts gotten off late each time which cuts into my 4 1/2 hours of daily sleep. This week my alarm clock did not go off and I woke up with 10 mins to get to class, needless to say I was late. The next day I was afraid to fall into a deep sleep because I didn't know if my alarm clock was going to work, so I ended up dozing in class. (Yeah I know, I should have been late, thats better than sleeping in class!) I had a test review and I got up was already got out to the car and it won't start, battery is dead. (Great there goes the hints on the test! Luckily I exchanged numbers with a girl in my class and called her for the hints.) And today the test, no sleep because of last minute cramming, cars working, all I take is a pencil. I get out of the car drop the pencil then proceed to step on it and break it. I don't have time to go home and get another one so I am in the test trying to write with half a pencil, which is difficult because I like to doodle too.

I was walking out from the test with the girl from my class and we were saying how hard the test was and then she said, "I don't know how you do it? it seems like everything that can go wrong for you does." I just laughed and said yep it does but I am ready for whatever may come. Its good that I can laugh at the things going on even though it seems like endless torture. If I don't laugh I could sit and cry every day but then that would satisfy the evil powers, and I am not going to give them that satisfaction!!!! I am going to be more prepared with the Lord on my side so ....

Bring it on I am ready!!!

Some thoughts from church

I really like my ward there are so many wonderful people that have strong testimonies and I can really feel the spirit. Something that was said last week I have been dwelling on, it was said in Sunday school, we were reading in 3rd Nep. about the coming of the Lord and the teacher got on the subject of being worldly. She said that she has to constantly remind herself not to worry about the bills, and cleaning the house, working, worrying about the daily things because all it is ... is just a worldly worry. It really hit me because it seems like all I do is worry about the worldly things, so much that it cause me to have major stress and causes me and Richard to argue some times. My mother gave me a picture a long time ago and it says,

"We are not Human beings having a spiritual experience.

We are Spiritual beings having a human experience."

I correlate that with what was said in Sunday school. I need to stop being so worldly and start focusing on being a spiritual being. I hung that picture in my bedroom, because I need the constant reminder to stop being worldly.

Another thing that was said yesterday was about Trials.... how trials are given to us to help us turn to the Lord to over come them. We are given trials to learn something, gain something from it. I started to cry because I know I have not turned to the Lord enough to help us over come our trials. I am trying to take it all upon myself without turning to the Lord for help. I feel like that lesson was directed towards me as a wake up call. Richard is his own person I don't try to tell him how/what he should do as far as the gospel is concerned. (I do however express my feelings about the church, my desires for him and my longing to be sealed.) But I think it is high time I turn to the Lord more often for help!

Decisions, decisions, decisions

Decisions, decisions, decisions, that seems to be all that we are faced with lately. Things have not been going well for Richard at the hospital. He thought the hospital was trying to find a way to get rid of him because of his injury and the litigation's with the insurance company, and I thought it was all in his head until I talked to the director of the ER. It seems like she is "trying" to do all she can to "help" Richard, but she keeps tip toeing around the issue. So Richard and I have talked about things and we think it will be best if Richard puts his two week notice in so he still has a good standing with the hospital. He is going to try and get a job in Cedar City with his mom in the ER. He will drive down stay for his shifts and then drive home after some sleep. It is a hard decision specially since I don't want him to be away for so long.

When we were talking about him quiting it was kind a emotional, because Pioneer Valley Hospital is where we met, is our home away from home, we so many friends that work there or visit from the ambulance/fire/police (yes we do see then all at least once a shift) , but we would rather Richard quit than have him fired.

There are still so many things that cross my mind daily about our future. The most pressing is Richards health. It scares me that he will never get any better and keep circling down the drain, at the same time the doctor has done all he could to help. He wants Richard to go to Huntsman Cancer Institute to see a Lymphologist to have his lymph system evaluated, and Richard is going to the U of U pain clinic to see if anything else can be done to help with the nerve damage. We still have not heard anything from the Labor Commission and the lawyer says all we can do is just wait. Its pretty frustrating not knowing whats going to happen. But at the same time we are use to just waiting. Let us all just hope and pray for the best!